Heartache Part One

I mentioned in my profile, recently experiencing heartache. On November 30th, 2011 I had a miscarriage. I was three months pregnant. Any woman who has ever had a baby knows by three months your odds of miscarrying are very slim. I never expected to lose my baby. I had heard the heartbeat, seen its tiny little body on the ultrasound screen. I had so many hopes and dreams for this precious life growing inside me, and in an instant it was all gone.

We were in Idaho celebrating thanksgiving with my husbands family. While we were there my husband's grandmother passed away. It was during the funeral I started losing the baby. Deep down I knew what was happening but my heart still held on to hope. I will never forget laying on the table in an ultrasound room, the doctor trying desperately to find the baby's heartbeat. There was only static. That sound would haunt my dreams for weeks to come. I left that doctors office a changed woman. Later that night my husband rushed me to the emergency room. After a terrifying night in the E.R. it was over. My uterus was empty, along with my heart.